my solo trip

I don't know the perfect definition of a solo trip or how many hours can make a trip to be called a solo trip...all I know is that a solo trip is a trip where you travel all alone by taking care of yourself and of course with a communication known as "Intrapersonal communication." and ...I think it doesn't matter how long the journey is...

Now I'm going to reveal certain friendly things of mine. I hope you won't mind.

Actually from my childhood I have this habit of talking with myself., simply you can say a kind monologue where other people can't hear my voice except me as it is a silent talk😄 this talk helps me too in creating a "stream of consciousness" on my mind And I still enjoy such Intrapersonal talks.  

There is a poem written by Pablo Naruda named"Keeping Quite" where he also brings this concept of introspection. Means ontordrishti(in Assamese), says that by doing introspection we experience an unusual feeling, filled with no hurry or no worry just a deep realization of everything. 

 Similarly, when I spend time with myself by keeping in isolation, I dig my mind like in the poem 'Digging' by Seamus Heany 😄 and start to analyze things very deeply. I ask question to myself and then also give answer to that questions by accepting all the perspectives and arguments and later come up with a fine answer.😊 Therefore all the outcomes of my various questions are deeply attached to me for which I prefer a lonely walk rather than standing in a crowd.

Well, I know a solo trip is not only limited to talking with our self; it also makes us strong enough to face challenges that may occur during the trip. Most probably when we travel we all have a proper destination. If you are going on a long trip then after arriving at the destination you must find a room, a restaurant or whatever you think necessary to make yourself comfortable.

Recently one of my beloved friends went to Meghalaya and I learned that a solo trip not only helps us in understanding ourselves better but also makes us able to adjust to all the circumstances along with the management of money. It teaches the management of money like where to save or where to spend. My friend succeeded in making the trip of rupees five thousand only where he saved one thousand from the mentioned amount. (I guess)

Anyway, my solo trip is a little different. Being a girl(though sounds derogatory still using) I can not allow myself to a long solo trip like Shillong. (Though I want) but every problem has a solution and every desire can be filled with proper planning .

I decided too to make my solo trip. It was a trip to Guwahati. I told my mother that I have some necessary works to do in Gauhati so I need to go. And that's how I took her permission. 

It was Tuesday and around  5.30 a.m I woke up and ready myself for the so-called 'solo' trip. 😄 I was very happy. I wore a white color Kurti with a plazo, made a ponytail, applied eyeliner on  eyes, and little lipstick on  lips💄, oohh wore a watch too on where I didn't set the time😬.

Father gave me two hundred rupees for my bus fare and around 6 o'clock I took a bus. The driver was saying -" Guwahati Guwahati maligaw maligaw......bhonti kot jaba?"

I said -"Guwahati jam."

The driver said-"utha utha utha aami jamei aru"

I replied -"thik ase, muk Adabarit rokhai dibo'

And then I found a window seat and finally, the bus started to move. For some time I listened to some Hindi songs but suddenly I told myself that no, I'm not gonna listen to any song at least today on this trip. Because wherever I travel I use to listen to some fav songs of mine and enjoy the world of imagination. And that day I wanted to change something. I wanted to travel with a conscious mind enjoying the present time by not going deep into my fictional world. I took care of myself for not to get disturbed by any unseen thoughts. And kept my mobile and earphone in my bag. And started to observe the passengers on the bus. 

Before reaching my Adabari destination 😂 I gave fifty rupees (bus fare) to the conductor. After reaching Jalukbari, many passengers got off from  the bus and I thought"bus khn Adabari jabo ne nai," I was a little worried. And don't know what happened to me that day that I forgot the Adabari bus station.

out of anxiety, I asked a passenger-"dada Adabari par holu nki?" He said -"nai nai pam aru".

So, finally, I too got off from the bus and saw the shopping mall, near the station which is still under construction I guess. And after seeing the mall, I took a breath of relief .

Then I took another bus and set my next destination to Bhangagarh. (This is the destination where I felt something deep and enjoyed also)...